So, I figured that 7 posts deep is probably too far in to be writing this blog without sharing with y’all why I’m doing this in the first place.
I’ve been a writer for a long time, with varying degrees of success and consistency. I’ve dabbled in spoken word as well, but I think that I might be a little more limited in that arena when the English-speaking percentage of the population around me has drastically shrunken. I’ve had a couple of other blogs before this, now languishing in complete inactivity due to my own lack of focus and drive.
But this time, it’s going to be different.
So why do I write?
I write because it’s the only true outlet I’ve found so far to relieve the burdens in my soul when they start to overwhelm my shoulders. I write because I can pour out everything I feel onto the page, words gushing out of me with reckless abandon. In my short twenty-nine years, I’ve seen and done so many things that I will never be able to forget, both for the good and for the bad. I can’t tell you about the countless nights I spent without sleep, unable to close my eyes without seeing the horrors of the day, writing away all of the pain in me. My phone is full of unfinished poems and essays, odes to sadness and despair, monuments to days of mania and nights of madness.
There also those rarer moments when I experience something so beautiful and profound that I have to write them down. My memory being what it is, I need to preserve those moments of happiness and hope for when the sadness returns, when my consciousness starts to disconnect from the world around me.
I also write because I want to share with you what I’m feeling, what I’m thinking, what I see, what I experience. I’ve heard a thousand times over that people with bipolar disorder feel things more intensely than the average joe. I feel sometimes like I’m one of those little shrimps with extra rods and cones that let them see colors we could never even imagine, but instead of a color palette, my emotional range is just extremely saturated with nuance and depth. When you have so much depth to your feelings, you can’t help but just want to express them.
So what’s this blog going to be about? Well, I can tell you that it won’t be only focused on one thing. I’m going to write about politics, about faith, about food, and maybe some poetry. I can also say that this blog about my journey through aliyah, but I don’t think that the journey will ever end. I think that I’ve been here long enough to realize that I will never stop discovering things here, seeing new things, experiencing life constantly as if every day was a rebirth of the entire world. It’s taken a long time for me to get to this place, both physically and mentally. I spent so much and sacrificed to come to this land, and I’ve finally reached a time in my life where I want to see the next day in a land I truly love.
Other than that, I can’t say where else this blog will take me. Everything I write is 100% me, the unfiltered, uninhibited, completely real me. I will never lie to you, never try to sugarcoat this place or myself, and I will never say anything that doesn’t reflect who I am.
So that’s why I write, what I’m going to write, and now I just need you. I need you to read, to digest, to see what I have to say. I want to connect with you, wherever you may be. My words come right from the soul, and they’re made for you. So, thank you for reading so far and for hopefully reading in the future. This blog is just beginning, and so is my journey in this holy land. I hope you can walk alongside me as I explore this beautiful place, and we can share a connection that will last longer than any words I pen.
Welcome (officially) to From Houston to Holy Land.